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Tuesday, 25. May 2004 22:41

So today… I vacuumed our pool for the first time since winter… even though it’s been open for a few weeks now.

There were lots of leaves at the bottom, which is normal.

I was enjoying the peace of being in the pool alone, slowing vacuuming the bottom.

And then… I noticed that one of the big leaves was NOT a leaf..

It was a mouse!

A gross, dead mouse at the bottom of the pool!

After feeling a little nauseated, I got the skimmer and scooped it off the bottom of the pool.

As soon as it came out of the water, the body totally disintegrated. All that was left were the intestines and other gooey insides.

I guess it had been down there for a quite a while, probably all winter.

SO GROSS!! Blegh!

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Monday, 17. May 2004 21:21

My graduation went so wonderfully! I am now an official university graduate! :D

In the morning, there was a baccalaureate service. The chaplain gave a sermon that almost made me cry. He talked about how it’s normal to have a fear of rejection and he described exactly the way that I’ve been feeling lately. I don’t want to look for a job, because I am afraid of being rejected.

Afterwards, my parents, my brother, Ryan and I went out to lunch. It was the last time that I’ll eat at BJs. I’ve had lots of “last times” in this past week.

The graduation ceremony was at 2:30pm. The sky was clear and it wasn’t too hot. Perfect. I got all dressed up in my cap and gown. It was really nice. About halfway into it though, it started to get really cloudy and we heard thunder. Miraculously though, it didn’t rain at all. Somehow it passed around us.

I’m glad that my school isn’t big. The name-calling didn’t take long at all. There were 424 of us. And, I walked across stage without tripping or anything. :-P

It was *really* bizarre afterwards. I kept thinking that I’m never going to see most of these people ever again.

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Sunday, 2. May 2004 18:41

When Ryan and I went hiking on Friday, we saw one of the most disturbing things ever. We were walking along side the road, to get back to our car, and we saw a deer at the edge of the woods. It had been hit by a car and was struggling to get up. It’s back legs were broken, so it couldn’t stand. The poor thing was panicking and scared. It was just awful. :-\

We saw a lot of live deer too. Probably about 10 of them all together. Plus, we found two deer skulls! One was female and one was male. Unfortunately, someone had already cut the antlers off the male one. I have an obsession with skulls and bones. I always want to take them home. I just think they’re incredibly awesome. We ended up leaving them in the woods though.

On Saturday, Ryan and I went miniature golfing. I totally kicked his butt. :-P I won by 10 points! Sometimes I’m really good at mini golf and sometimes I’m just awful. This time was a good one. We seriously had such a blast. I couldn’t stop laughing. The whole experience was just great.

Afterwards, we got some dinner at Outback and then met Chris to see Kill Bill Vol. 2. I wasn’t impressed by the movie, but I didn’t see the first one. Plus, I knew from the start that I didn’t want to see it, so that might have had an impact on my opinion. It was just really slow. I dunno. Not my genre at all.

Ryan drank with dinner, so he let me drive his car over to the movie theater. When the movie was over, he thought it would be best for me to drive home, because he still was feeling a little off – either from the alcohol or because he was tired (I’m thinking it must have just been sleepiness though).

I had a really terrific weekend, and it was even better that the weather was beautiful. I could go on for pages about all the stuff we did, but I’ll spare you. Anyways, I should get started on my homework. Last week of classes/exams!

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Friday, 23. April 2004 15:54

This morning, I went to another appointment at my university’s career center. I felt like I was talking to a shrink! The guy is really nice and all, but he was analyzing my personality. Supposedly, that will help me get a job. lol. Well, it’s supposed to help figure out what career will suit me. However, the way he was talking seriously made me feel like I was talking with a doctor.

Have you ever taken that Myers Briggs test thing? I’m an ISFJ: Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging. I was 100% in the Judging area, which means that I am very structured and planning-oriented. Like whoa.

An ISFJ is described as: Quiet, friendly, responsible, and conscientious. Works devotedly to meet his/her obligations. Lends stability to any project or group. Thorough, painstaking, accurate. His/her interests are usually not technical. Can be patient with necessary details. Loyal, considerate, perceptive, concerned with how other people feel.

I think that describes me so perfectly. It’s kind of funny that I’m “not usually technical” and yet I majored in computer science. That explains why I now hate it. lol.

Basically, because I am so strong in Judging and I’m also Feeling, it brings a lot of confliction in my life. I need structure, closure, organization and order. And yet, I also need to please everyone else.

That is *exactly* why the job search is so stressful for me. I really, really, really wish that I could know for sure what I will be doing. But, I’m trying so hard to please everybody else, which just screws everything up. I can’t explain it very well, but the career center guy said that usually people aren’t Judging *and* Feeling, they’re usually one or the other. He said that being both makes things tough.

So, yeah, he’s acting like a shrink and I’m learning more about myself. But so far, I’m not any closer to figuring out what kind of job I want.

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Hanson concert!

Thursday, 11. March 2004 20:36

Colleen (my sister) and I got to the Webster Theater (Hartford, CT) at 5pm. Doors were 7:30pm and already the line was pretty long. I expected that, though. Hanson’s tour bus was already there and soon after we were in line, we heard screaming towards the front. The line was curved around the building, so we couldn’t see anything. I sent Colleen to the front to see what was going on, while I saved our place. She saw the boys leaving the bus and got some pictures [that didn’t come out, because she’s too short!]. When she came back to tell me about it, she was all excited and crazy. Since I hadn’t seen them, I was calm. It was weird – I thought that she was being immature, for a lack of a better word. I didn’t think that *I* would get that way..

We waited in the COLD until a little after 7:30pm, when we got herded inside. We joined the crowd in the front of the stage and there were probably 10 heads (because it was standing only) in front of us. We had a good center spot. The opening band came onstage around 8:15pm and played until 8:45pm. They were okay, but not great. I’m not sure who they were, because I couldn’t understand their name. I don’t really care though.

About halfway through their set, two girls behind us started to pretend that their friend Danielle was up in the front and they had to reach her to figure out rides home. They bullied their way through the crowd, which was very packed. Pretty soon, screaming and hitting broke out. The people that they were cutting in front of were getting angry, blah, blah. I couldn’t tell exactly what was going on, but I could feel the effects of the pushing. The girls had friends who were still behind us, and one of them was going crazy. She wanted to get up there to help her friends out. There was no way that I was letting her through. She was like, “Becca! Becca! I’ll come up there and start hitting them. I can take them all down.” Yeah, right. I stood my ground and she eventually calmed down. Some people are so stupid.

After the opening band finished, the lights went back on and we were all just standing there. It took Hanson a half hour to come out! It seemed like so much longer. There was this old man about two people behind me, who was definitely drunk. He was telling us that as soon as the lights went off and Hanson came on, we were going to lift him up. He wanted to crowd surf to the front. Then he’s like, “I’m so high!!” and I could definitely smell the alcohol on his breath. How pathetic is that? At first I thought he was some loser 40-year-old who hangs out at the Webster, but I think he might actually like Hanson. When the lights went out, fortunately no one lifted him up, but he did push and shove his way forward. There was a girl with him, who I thought just befriended him to get to the front. However, later I realized that she must have been his daughter. And this man knew the words to the songs. Very bizarre.

So anyways, Hanson came on stage around 9:20pm and started with Rock n Roll Razorblade. Zac looked really good, with a dark purple tshirt and jeans. Ike was wearing an old white Adidas tshirt with a sports jacket over it (which he took off halfway through) and jeans. Tay was wearing a three-quarter sleeve green shirt, a scarf (orange stripes), and jeans. I don’t remember the set list exactly, but they sang: Rock n Roll Razorblade, Underneath, Penny and Me, When You’re Gone, Crazy Beautiful (just Tay on stage, who said he really likes it and that the studio version sounds really different), Lulla Belle (just Zac on stage), MMMBop, Madeline, If Only, Hand in Hand (just Ike on stage), You Never Know, Hey, Ain’t No Sunshine (a cover), Where’s the Love, Song to Sing, Lost Without Eachother, Strong Enough to Break, and Dirrty (a cover).

The show was really great. It was such an odd experience, because this was the first time where I could actually *see* them in person. I went to a concert in 1998, but my seats were terrible and I didn’t get to meet them or anything. I’m used to seeing them on TV, so it took me a while to fully comprehend that they were truly right there in front of me. It was hard to believe, but definitely awesome.

Ike makes the funniest faces while singing. He seriously looks constipated! Especially during Hand in Hand, when it was just him. He was really getting into the song! Zac was the only one who looked around at the crowd the whole time. It felt like I kept making eye contact with him, but I doubt that he was actually looking at me. Tay was being quite dramatic with the way that he played the piano and sang. At one point, he climbed on top of the piano to try to get the crowd to clap. Then he rolled over onto his back and laid there for a little bit. :-P

Around 10:45pm, they told us that they were going to play their last song. But then they came back out to do Christina Aguilera’s ‘Dirrty’. It was so great. I loved their harmony during it, and it was pretty funny! I heard that they only do that cover sometimes, and I was glad that they chose to do it. Overall, I was really happy with the songs that they did. It was a nice mix of old and new. I loved how when they did Middle of Nowhere songs, the crowd really got into it. Those songs bring back such memories, probably for all of us.

After it was over, Coll and I went outside to wait for them. Somehow, we managed to get in the very front. We were pushed up against a bike rack barrier. There was a good-sized group out there waiting. Remember, it was freeeeezing cold. They made us wait out there for an HOUR! Talk about rude! haha. :-P

Actually, when we first got out there, Tay and Zac were already on the bus. When they came outside, they were heading back into the venue and Tay said to us, “We’ll be back.” At least that gave us some hope. But, as we were freezing our butts off, all of their gear got loaded into the trailer, so we figured that they wouldn’t spend very much time outside with us.

Finally, Zac walked out with some guys and he came over to us. Actually, he came right over to me and Colleen. The whole thing happened in slow motion, and I’m really not quite sure how it was. I think that I reached for his hand and he reached for the Sharpie marker that I was holding. We shook hands, and then as he took my marker and paper, I continued to hold his wrist. My hands were SO cold and his arm was SO incredibly warm – I just couldn’t take my hand off of him! hehe. Eventually I did though, and he signed the piece of paper that I had. It was the envelope, because I didn’t think to bring anything else with me. I gave it to him with the white side up, and he turned it over and signed the side that had writing! I was like, “No, the other side.” He was so cute. He said, “Oh, okay, well, here – now it’s double-sided” because he signed both sides! lol. Eeee.. so great. Then, he asked me if he could borrow my Sharpie to sign everyone else’s things. He was very polite. :-) Of course I let him, and then he gave it back when he was finished. He really only went to the people right around me, not along the whole bike rack. We got very lucky.

Then Tay and Ike came out, and Tay came right over to the fans. He started with a few people down from me and went in the opposite direction. This was kind of good, because it gave me a chance to comprehend what was going on. Instead of the slow motion effect that I had with Zac, I could actually look at Tay – and take some pictures of him. Tay was totally cool with the fans. He really gave his attention to everyone. It took him forever to sign and take pictures with everyone, and then he finally came down to the end that I was at. He told us that he didn’t have time and had to go, but some people asked him for his autograph, so he spent a few more minutes. I was trying to get his attention, but I wasn’t able to get his autograph. However, –and this happened in slow motion too– he grabbed my outstretched hand with both of his hands and said, “I’m really, really sorry. I have to go now.” He looked SO sincere. I’m actually not sure what *I* looked like though. lol. I think at first I was staring at his hands holding mine, and then I was able to look at his face. It was soooo weird. He was quite nice about the whole thing though.

Ike, on the other hand, wasn’t very nice at all. He didn’t even *acknowledge* that the fans existed. He didn’t come over and he didn’t even wave. He stood outside the bus for a few minutes, talking with people that ended up getting on the bus with him (friends, I guess). Actually, a good number of people got on that bus.

As Colleen and I walked back to our car, we both were totally flipping out. I didn’t think that I would behave that way. It was just such a rush. (At least I didn’t act stupid in front of them!)

So, yeah, that was it. It was one of the best concerts that I have ever been to! I recorded some of the songs on my cell phone voicemail, I got Zac’s autograph, and I was able to touch Zac and Tay. Wow. I cannot believe it. It was just great. :-)

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garbage picker

Sunday, 7. March 2004 21:36

Lately, the end of my road and the road perpendicular to it have been very littered. People throw garbage out their car windows, and it’s just disgusting. For the past few days, there’s been a full gallon of orange juice sitting on the corner. We were getting really sick of looking at all the crap, so my sister, brother and I decided to pick it up today.

We walked down to the end of my street and a good portion of the other one, and filled up three garbage bags. It’s unbelievable the stuff that you find. I have no clue what is up with orange juice. Not only was there the gallon bottle, but there was also an unopened half gallon carton! Isn’t that so weird?

It really scares me the amount of liquor bottles and beer cans that are all over. I live in a very residential, forested neighborhood. It freaks me out that so many people are drinking while driving.

Another odd thing was this vcr box. It was pretty far from the street, but I decided to walk into the woods to get it. It was fairly big, so I didn’t want to just leave it there. As I got closer to it, I noticed that the corner was kind of ripped and there was a black garbage bag sticking out. It was kinda wet and gross, so instead of just picking the whole thing up, I peaked into the corner first. Oh my gosh, I am so glad that I didn’t just lift up the box. When I peered in, there was some kind of rotting animal. I couldn’t really tell what it was, because all I saw was an open jaw… but ew. Did someone kill an animal or did their pet just die? I definitely decided to leave it alone. I didn’t want to know what was in there. Yuck, yuck, yuck.

Other than that, the experience was pretty good.

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pretty roses

Sunday, 15. February 2004 20:57

The president of my university has this cat. Okay?

I don’t like cats at all.

Unfortunately, the president and his family don’t want it to be an inside cat, so it wanders around campus. Fine.

The bad part is that it practically lives in my building. It is *always* in here. Not cool.

I don’t like walking in the hallways or in my suite and seeing it just sitting there, staring at me. It freaks me out.

Now, I usually don’t like to have my bedroom door open. I’m not fond of the idea of letting everyone look in at me. I don’t know why. I’m just more of a private, non-social person, I guess.

But tonight, I walked back from a volunteer dinner with the girl that lives next to me. We both just left our doors open when we got here. No big deal.

However, I just turned around (I face the wall when I’m on the computer), and the freaking cat was in my room!!! It was walking around smelling stuff. Ew, ew, ew. Fortunately, when I stood up, it ran out.

I definitely shut my door. I don’t think I’m going to leave it open anymore.


— *** ~~~


I had a really nice weekend. Watched a lot of DVDs and just hung out with Ryan.

On Saturday night, we went out to Applebees for dinner. It was a 2 hour wait. It wasn’t a big deal though, because we just came back to my room to kill time. It was crazy that there was such a long wait at a restaurant like that, though. I mean, I guess there isn’t much else around here.. and people want to go out to eat on Valentine’s Day.. but, it was nuts. We had a good time though.

Ryan bought me the first season of CSI. It’s great, because I just finished the first season of ER last week. I love TV shows on DVD. Good stuff.

Unfortunately, the weekend had to come to an end. He left around 7:30pm.. :-\ I’m going to see him in two weeks though, so it’s not too bad. It’s always better when I *know* when the next time will be.

— *** ~~~

So, every year, my school has this Student Volunteer Awards Program thing. It’s usually long and boring, but I go anyways. Actually, last year, I won the best volunteer for SAVE. That was fairly cool.

But yeah, so it was tonight. And you know what, it was a lot of fun! I really love my SAVE friends. I always have a good time with them. We’re such a good group.

I laugh so much with those girls (and like, one guy, lol). I’m seriously going to miss SAVE and all my SAVE friends tremendously after I graduate.

“I tried juicing pretty much everything and anything…” ~Nate

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Thursday, 29. January 2004 16:39

My university has the dumbest public safety officers ever. They must have nothing to do but issue parking tickets, and in my case, invalid parking tickets.

Since I had surgery on my foot, I was able to get a handicap parking permit. It’s awesome! However, my school keeps giving me tickets because they don’t see it hanging from my rear-view mirror! I don’t know if I wrote about this before, but last week I was issued a $25 ticket because I was parked in faculty parking. True, the handicap spot is technically in the faculty area – but that shouldn’t matter. It would be illegal for them to forbid me from parking there, since I have a permit. I brought it to the attention of public safety, and they apologized and didn’t make me pay.

This morning, I went out to my car and there was another ticket! This time, it was $50 for parking in a handicap spot. Well, duh! It looked as though they wiped the snow off my windshield to check to see if I had a permit. They must be blind, because it was hanging right there! Again, I had to go into their office to get out of it. It wasn’t a problem and the guy was super apologetic, but geeze! This is getting so annoying! I really hope that this doesn’t continue all semester!

After finding the ticket, I went to physical therapy. I decided that I’m going to go twice more (next week) and then I’ll stop. I’m making really good progress, so I don’t want to stop just yet. The physical therapist was in a weird mood today. He’s always really talkative, but he seemed kind of off this morning. He’s been having a hive problem, and he had one under his eye and one on his lip. It looked so bizarre! lol.

I decided that when I was done, I was going to treat myself to Subway. Normally I would have just gone back and eaten at school, but I needed to go to the grocery store and Walmart. I figured that it would be smarter to eat lunch before shopping for food. I was thinking that I was going to go to the mall today (I have lots of presents to buy; too many “holidays” in February), but I wasn’t in the mood. I guess I should figure out what I’m going to buy before I walk all around the dinky mall. :P

I really should look for a job. I’m just not sure that I can handle it. I’m not going to be able to walk around a lot, and I just feel like I have too much going on at school. I always let SAVE rule my schedule. I recycle on Tuesdays and Thursdays; I have Envirofair and regular meetings, plus some random meetings. I’m just not sure what I would tell a job. When am I available? I don’t really want to work on weekends either, because I want to leave them free for Ryan. Plus, I do have classes and homework! lol. I guess I need to think about it some more. I could really use some paychecks.

You know what’s pathetic? I have to make lists to remember to tell Ryan stuff. I mean, I know that I have a bad memory to begin with, but it’s quite ridiculous. It’s hard on Tuesday and Wednesday nights to talk, because I have night class and a SAVE meeting. Therefore, in the middle of the week, we don’t talk much – and I forget things that I want to tell him! His classes just started this week and it seems like this is going to be a really busy semester for him. :-\

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i’m so dumb

Sunday, 25. January 2004 22:39

Well, I had quite a good weekend. It was very relaxing, which was needed. Ryan and I mostly watched movies. We played a little Playstation 2 as well, but I’m not very good at video games.

On Friday night, we saw Win a Date with Tad Hamilton. It was, um, okay. Definitely a cute movie, but not exactly good. The guy (Pete) in it is the actor who plays Eric on That 70s Show. It was weird seeing him with dark hair, and in such a different setting.

Today, I was going to leave around 3pm, but I’m an idiot. Ryan and I went outside to start my car. I also had to check the coolant level in my radiator. You know how sometimes you just do things automatically without thinking? Yeah. I locked my keys in the car, with the engine running.

I felt so stupid. I was really upset with myself. It was embarassing. ::Sigh:: I’m still mad about it.

I called AAA and it took them about an hour to get there. It was really neat the way that they unlocked the car. The guy had a flat pouch that he slid into the door. Then, he pumped air into it and it forced the door open a little. He stuck a long rod into the door and pressed the ‘unlock’ button. It was scary how fast and easy it was!

The radiator is majorly leaking. My car is falling apart. It’s really frustrating. I have to keep filling it back up with coolant. That was one of the major reasons why locking my keys in the car was so awful. The car was running and the coolant level was empty. Fortunately, Ryan had some at his house, so I was able to fill it up. But still. Ugh.

There was supposed to be a huge snowstorm today, which was another reason why I wanted to leave Ryan’s house earlier this afternoon. However, it was delayed and last I heard, it hasn’t even started to snow there. The storm is moving north, so it’ll hit my school after it hits MD. Oh – I just looked out the window and it has started here. I’m glad that I got back before the roads were bad. I was a little worried about that.

Anyways, I should be getting to bed. I’m really drowsy. This week is going to be so busy for me. I have meetings or classes almost every minute of every day. I thought I was going to be able to get a job this semester. I don’t see that happening if things continue this way. I need money though!

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Friday, 23. January 2004 8:33

I have such a crazy day ahead of me. And the cleaning ladies vacuum the hallways too early in this building and they wake me up every day. Ugh.

I have Financial Accounting at 10am and Leadership of Tomorrow at 11:15am. Then Julie and I eat lunch at 12:20pm. Around that time, I have to stop into the Residence Life office – they are being annoying…

See, the beds in this room are lofted and they are really high off the ground (taller than me!). I don’t like it. I want to be able to watch TV while laying in bed, etc. The RA put in a work order for someone to do it for me, but she was told that they wouldn’t unless I have a medical condition. Fortunately, I do! I just had surgery on my foot, and it actually is hard getting up and down the ladder. So now, I have to go into the office and explain this to them. I hope that I don’t need a doctor’s note, because that will be a pain in the butt. Maybe I can just show them my scar. haha.

Anyways, after lunch and talking to them, I have a physical therapy appointment at 1:30pm. I went yesterday for the first time, and eh, they’re okay. I’ve been to this place before, and I guess they’re alright. I just like my place back home better. But, as long as they get me walking without a limp and pain, I’ll be happy.

After I’m done there, I have to rush back to campus for my Introduction to Operating Systems class at 3pm. That gets over at 4:05pm, and then I’m out the door and in my car – to visit Ryan.

The weather isn’t looking so great this weekend: snow tonight and Sunday night. I think I’ll be okay though. It’s not a lot of snow, and I’m used to driving in it. I’ll just have to go extra slow, which I was planning on doing anyways. If I drive too fast, the vibrations will probably break my car apart! haha. Fabulous, eh?

So, anyways, I might not update again until Monday. Have a good weekend! :)

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